He was elated when he realized that their hearts had a special connection. He was so happy that his heart was part of a resonance pair. A string will swing at its maximum when the two ends are held at a particular distance. And he was petrified out of terror, the terror of fate, when he found out that the distance that makes their connection the strongest was so large that it might break the connection altogether. What choice did he have but to walk away to that far place, because he felt that one moment of the strongest connection between them was worth everything than a lifelong bond that knows not its true extent or purpose. It is so easy to call him a fool, which he really is.
i don’t hear the rain fall any more,
i don’t hear your footsteps any more,
or the soulful and innocent laughter that resounded down the corridors we once walked,
nor do I anymore fall in love everyday, with the soul that those eyes are portal to,
for you are too far to look into eyes, and share with you my soul’s deepest emotions.
fate took hold of everything that I held dear,
erasing footprints of the past, one at a time, slow and painful,
seeing which my senses crumbled, my words crippled,
helpless and woeful, I sing the song of a mute.
caught between staying true to love and life(not giving up), and the mundane desperation to run away from pain, I see the world laugh at me as I tear myself apart.
all i have now is a boulder that i use to bang my head,
when what i desperately need is a shoulder to rest upon.
emptied to the depths.
filled to the brim.
life is a swing of consciousness,
between the pricking disappointment of what we yearn for, but don’t have;
and the patting sense of calmness knowing the value of whatever little we already have.
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A zero is better than a false positive.
when I am devastated and nothing is going my way, and will seemingly not(as you will come to read); one small moment that hints at ‘a turn of events’ in favor of me will raise my hope so high, unaware of the eventuality of the nature of fate, that, when I come to know that it was just a false positive, and that the truth is that nothing is still going my way, I would be but double devastated.
A zero is better than a false positive. Less devastated is better than devastated-devastated.
am your today’s neglect,
it frightens me so much,
now i reel in fear that tomorrow will make me a neglect of your very heart,
realizing which, keep aside the dread, time collapses into a colorless frame,
fading into dark seems to be destiny,
that which I, but have to welcome.
and i do.
like runes etched on the ancient marble stone,
i fail to comprehend what bothers you,
i come near to deciphering your troubles,
i come near to tending your wounds,
but something stops me, some force i see not,
i struggle in its wrath, to break free and be there with you,
i try to stop the force by telling the importance of me being free,
i fail in convincing the force to release me, the force leaves me no choice but to fight.
spikes and daggers, blood and burns, wounds and wisdom,
i fight with a million forces, not enemies, within me and out of me,
i surrender to a few, i enslave a few, i fight with distaste for battle,
i yet offer a peace treaty with the force,in midst of such raging battle,
i offer to comeback and surrender, if…
if it let’s me out for now, for this moment,
the moment i intend to tend to your wounds and memories,
to heal and to raise your spirits,
and then my work will be done,
and once again, i will be at fate’s bidding.
the force releases me from its wrath,
there was not a split second gap between me being set free and i stopping my fight and sprint.
the force believes it is my destiny to comeback and lose.
i pity the force.
where i am going now is my destiny,
and where i return hence forth, as promised, is just a ‘destination’.
Force, you may win over me in muscle and mind,
see for yourself whom you fight against,
you fight one whose destiny is to love and spread peace,
do you really think your win over me is the end of it?